For the past year or so, I've been going through periods where I feel as though I'm dreaming. Sometimes I feel like I'm not in control of my body almost to the point where I'm just a bystander watching myself go about the day. I feel like nothing is real. It's really starting to freak me out and I have a terrible sense of loneliness because I feel like I'm the only person that actually exists and everyone else is just a figment of a dream or a machine or something. I looked up my symptoms online and I think I may have Depersonalization Disorder?
I am going through a lot of changes in my life right now (graduating high school, getting ready for college, breaking up with my boyfriend) and I think I may also have depression so this may be why I'm feeling this way more strongly than before. My parents are terrible listeners and usually end up blaming me for my feelings so I haven't told them anything. I didn't know what else to do so I turned to the internet.
I don't really know what I'm asking but I guess it's just: Do you think I have this disorder and should I get help for it?
It sounds like you may be dissociating, which people do when their emotions feel overwhelming, particularly if they've been traumatized as a child. If there is any way for you to get a really good therapist to talk to, I would strongly encourage you to do that. Not only can this be uncomfortable and scary, but if it is connected to depression and/or trauma, it's not a good idea to wait, because it could get worse without treatment. This is such an important and exciting and challenging time of your life--find someone who can help you navigate through it so the next part of your life is free to unfold.
Last Edited by Cynthia on Jun 27, 2014 9:18 AM