Ricky and I totally aren't having sex anymore. I don't know--he seems like a brother or something. I love him, but I don't really even want to kiss him. He's feeling pretty hurt about it. I told him he should find a girlfriend who loves to kiss him, but I didn't really mean it. I mean I think I'm really bad for him, but I can't stand the thought of being alone again. I checked out some dating sites, just to see if there was hope I could ever be with someone again, if Ricky and I break up. I saw alot of cute girls who sounded like pretty good matches. I'm really not looking for a date; I just need to know I could find one if I needed to. Truth is, though, that I would compare anyone I dated to my therapist, and there aren't many people, if any, who are as cool as she is. I hope Ricky and I can stay friends. I actually don't mind the thought of him seeing someone else, as long as we stayed friends--I think it would be a relief, actually.