The more I hang out with addicts, and study addiction, the clearer it is that I must be an addict too. The problem is that I don't know what kind. It's not alcohol or drugs--maybe sugar? Sex? Love? Caretaking? I just don't know. I just feel like forces inside me make me do things, and I don't get to choose what would be best for me--I just have to go with the forces. I don't know--I can't explain it--I just think I must be SOME kind of addict!?! I have to ask my therapist if she thinks I'm an addict. She might not know, though, because I haven't told her some things--like obsessing about driviing by her house, for instance.