Well, Stupidass here broke my ankle--fuck! I'm so pissed at myself. I wish I could say I broke it saving a cat caught in a tree or something, but no. I was just walking down stairs I walk down every day. just as I was about to take the last step, a friend from class called my name, and I turned my head around to see her, and landed on the side of my foot, twisting my ankle and breaking off a piece of bone. brilliant, huh? So now I have to hobble around on crutches, and I feel like an idiot. Everyone looks at me, the dork who can't even walk right. It hurt so bad, I was actually screaming in pain in the ER, so the dr gave me a few vicodin. we'd studied it in my class, but I'd never tried it. Wow--I see why people get addicted to that stuff! one minute I was in horrible pain, and a few minutes later, my body felt the opposite of pain all over. It felt exactly like the pain melted away--like it feels when you get into a hot tub, but even better. It's a good thing the dr only gave me 10 of them, or it would be really tempting to keep taking them. I so don't want to be a drug addict--that would totally suck! I think I understand them a little better now though. I mean studying them and talking about them is one thing, but taking the drug is like a whole new level of understanding. Maybe I should try some of the other drugs we're studying too.
Cynthia W. Lubow, MFT
Depression and PTSD Specialist
For 25 years, compassionately helping women heal from depression, and it's
destructive criticism, losses and traumas, while building self-acceptance and confidence.