I completely forgot it was Plern's birthday on Thursday--until Thursday morning when she reminded me! Crap--what a close call! Thank whoever, I didn't have to work Thursday, so I ran out and bought her the Tracy Chapman CD she wanted and baked her a chocolate cake, and surprised her with it when she came over Thursday nihgt. She seemed happy, and that made me happy. Needless to say, I didn't think it was a good time to tell her what my therapist and I worked out to tell her, so I haven't yet. I am so excited about Hawaii, it's hard to think we might not go if I have this conversation with her. In a way, it seems silly, because I'm sure we'll have a great time--we always enjoy chilling together (or maybe that's not the right word for Hawaii--hanging loose? Dorky). Besides, maybe going to Hawaii together will make me fall in love with her--why do all this hard talking if it's not going to be relevant in a couple weeks? Maybe I should just go and see what happens before having that conversation? Why does it have to be a big deal, anyway--it's not like I can't stand her or anything, I just don't feel in love with her. The sex is still great. Dang, I hope Rochelle's ok while I'm gone!
Cynthia W. Lubow, MFT
Depression and PTSD Specialist
For 25 years, compassionately helping women heal from depression, and it's
destructive criticism, losses and traumas, while building self-acceptance and confidence.